Siao Ang Mo!

Kenna scolded by siao angmo just because we choose between left or right tables at the food court. She was not even near & both the tables are not occupied. What's wrong with her! Go back to your own country!!! PIG!

She drives me crazy !!!

Mom is always thinking too much.

Now she complains that I invited dad & her siblings to Sheyenne 1-month old party... and said that I never visited her nephew & niece babies & return them with gifts.

The problem is, I am not close to my cousins. I don't even have their numbers. I don't know of their recent updates. My mom herself didn't even give them red packet or gift when they had their babies. And now she demands that I should go visit my uncle, her brother, and return him $60! WTF!

I said, why $60? She said cause he given you $20 and a bottle of liquor. I can't really remember what the liquor is, I think it's VSOP. It's a black bottle and looked used. And even the $20 is in a very old red packet too... btw, does my uncle expect me to start drinking & go partying after my baby turns 1-month old? silly!

And now she say, her youngest sister is scolding about somebody. She thinks she's referring to me. She thinks she is scolding about me inviting them to Sheyenne's 1-month and took their gifts and did not do the same to my uncle's children.

Excuse me. I didn't even know about the newborns!

Mom always make it in such a way that we don't owe our relatives, and they don't owe us anything too. Because of such thinking of hers, we are very distant from all our relatives.

Now brother has just shifted to his new place, and thinking of inviting the relatives. Mom strongly opposed to it. I dunno why she always behaves this way... She likes to control everything. And thinks too much too!

When Sheyenne was celebrating her 1-month old, mom even needs to be so calculative to the extent of asking me if parking is free at my place on Sunday. I asked if parking is not free, does it mean that she is not coming? She got angry over it. I think I should be the one getting angry!!! Imagine the grandma is calculating about parking fee instead of thinking of visiting her grandchild!!! Does $1 or $2 means so much to her?

From the day Sheyenne is born, until she is 10 months old. Mom has only visited me thrice. Once at the hospital, once before Sheyenne is 1-month old, and once when Sheyenne celebrates her 1-month old. Then she only reappear when Sheyenne is 10 months old.

And after the USA trip, she just went missing and reluctant to come & help me with Sheyenne. My only choice was to send Sheyenne to a child care. And almost everyday, mom will call me to pick up Sheyenne earlier. What have I done to make her think that I am idling everyday? If she really cares for Sheyenne, why did she forsake her?

Is that really MY MOM?

Bitch at Kinokuniya

An afternoon at Kinokuniya, Ngee Ann City.

Sheyenne chuckle. Briefly, and not loudly. Not even screaming or shouting.

Bitch on a bench reading a book said "Shh...., Shh... , Shh..., Can you ask your child to quiet down?" in a rude manner.

"This is not a library." I replied.

"People are trying to read a book. Your child is making too much noise." she said.

"Then you should GO to a LIBRAY to READ YOUR BOOK." I replied in a stern tone.

Crazy bitch. It is a book store, and a public one. There is no sign anywhere to ask people to keep quiet. If she really want to read in a quiet environment, go to the library or go back home!

Maybe she is too poor to afford the book to bring it home to read... poor bitch!

Ugly Singaporeans

Saw an amazing scene @ IMM today.

Once we insert the coins for the carousel, a.k.a. Merry-Go-Round. All the children, whom are strangers to us, hop on for a free ride. An Indian lady quickly ran over with her two kids and put them on it.

It's only $2.

It makes me feel like those experiences I had when I was in China. If you give a beggar some coins, all the beggars start to come forward.

Good Friend? Ever?

So called good friend gave a bag of clothes (sample pieces) for shyanne. She can never get her name right. Despite several attempts to correct her. She can't even get MY name right, still address me as Gym.

After sending her the 1st sms reply to thank her for the clothes, and told her i like a few of them. She got hysterical and accused me of taking her friendship for granted. Then she mentioned about not regarding one of her secondary school friend not as her friend anymore, I simply replied 'Friendship are not easy to maintain, it takes two to clap.' And she gets more hysterical and start more accusation. And claimed that she is more experienced and much better than me to maintain friendship. Oh yeah, MY ASS!

In my earlier sms, I told her to feel free to come my place, and ended the sms with a 'You are welcome'. Apparently, she misinterpreted my message and keep asking why I told her 'You are welcome' when I should have said "Thank you'. I dunno why she has to be so jumpy about my 'You are welcome' message.

Some of her sms goes like this:

1) Thanks for your concern now asking me regarding my job loss. The 4k that I still owe u, I remember. Will return u when i am better off but i am not now. These samples solely for the kids benefits. You know what. I aldy not considered lynn as my friend anymore. I dont hurt my friend and i also dont like people taking my friendship or good intention for granted.

2) Agree. If one party does its part but the other took it for granted or even makes friend feel small, then it is smeared. True friendship can sustain trails of life no matter what and also true colors of friendship can still surface after many years of trails in life.

3) I left behind a past that someone else purposely created for me to destroy me. one that I will have to live with as a mystery forever. The last thing I need is to jeopardise friendship i cherish for years. But my instinct tells me when its time to assess it when things feel not right. I dont have to tell you the details but i have a hunch u are saying i didnt do my part as a friend. I also sense some hostility here. What's all these craps about?

I had enough of these smses.... this is a test to my endurance. A good friend will not spout such nonsense and cause me hurt like that.

She even called another friend and spouted more nonsense. Such as I am a teacher, why didn't I know that after receiving things from people, I should say 'Thank You', instead of 'You're welcomed.' I think she is really over her head. CRAZY!!! Btw, 1st, I am a computer trainer, not a english teacher, 2nd, a true good friend will not criticized about your job & hint that you're not doing your job well. It's an insult to me for her to make such a remark.

I feel like returning the whole bagful of shit & the other stuff that she had passed to me for Sheyenne. To be on the kuai-lan side, I didn't tell her to pick up the samples for Sheyenne. Furthermore, she do it on her own free will and should not expect that receivers will return with a 'THANK YOU.' (although I think I did tell her Thank You.) WHAT does she expect? She wants me to kneel down & kiss her on her feet?

By lending her 5k when I myself was jobless & pregnant & not from a rich environment is something very great that I think have done for her. On top of that, I've never asked her when she wants to return to me. When she loan it from me in Year 2002, she promised to return half in 3 months time, the remaining in another 3 months time. I get 1k in Year 2005, and the other 80% is still no where to be found.

Since young, I've been tolerating her nonsense. She is so damn hysterical that she can spoil your day if you hit on her nerves accidentally. Or even, if you didn't do anything to her. :-(

I am really pissed with her. I really thought of erasing this person from my memory & contact list.

A friend will not treat you like this.

WHAT AM I ???

Very upset, mad & angry!!!

He went to a wake for the past 2 nights. Tonight, he will be a driver. Why? Whenever she asked him to do anything, he'll obliged. But whenever I asked him for something, refusal is his reply for 90% of the time.

What am I? Where am I in his list of priority? I am always the LAST priority!!!

Even simple stuff like going to the supermarket with me on weekdays is a chore to him. I have to be the one who always do all the grocery, by myself, lugging with me bags of food home. And he, just eat it happily. No physical help from him, no financial help as well. I am WORST than a maid!!! The maid don't even need to pay for anything!!!

Why am I paying, cleaning, doing everything for the family? And he just gets to enjoy all these, and not even appreciative!!! And abusing me verbally & physically!!! One day, I will end all these sufferings!

I have been making mistake after mistake in my relationship. But I can't just quit for this one. But many times, I thought of living by myself again. Why am I supporting the family? Everything from salt to rice to diapers is from my own pocket.

Why do I have to work so hard? And he just takes everything for granted!!!

Sometimes, I thought of leaving with Sheyenne. I think we might be happier by ourselves. So the dad can't use rubberband to abuse her. What a brilliant idea his mom has suggested!!! RUBBERBANDS !!!

I really feel like returning him to his mom. I feel like an outsider. Never feel I am HIS family. NEVER !!!

Sheyenne OHM

My little princess has been rejecting her Chinese name recently. Insist that she is Sheyenne, not baby, no JingRu. And she like to emphasize her family name. But instead of pronouncing it as Ong, she will pronounce as Ohm. So she is Sheyenne Ohm.

We laugh at that. Cute, isn't it.

She is also a rather stubborn girl. When she wants to do something such as keeping her toys, if you keep them for her. She will take it out, and put it back. She is also rather particular. If things are not place in the same location as what she wanted. She will insist you place it in the position that she wants.

This little one, makes me happy, makes me mad.