WHAT AM I ???

Very upset, mad & angry!!!

He went to a wake for the past 2 nights. Tonight, he will be a driver. Why? Whenever she asked him to do anything, he'll obliged. But whenever I asked him for something, refusal is his reply for 90% of the time.

What am I? Where am I in his list of priority? I am always the LAST priority!!!

Even simple stuff like going to the supermarket with me on weekdays is a chore to him. I have to be the one who always do all the grocery, by myself, lugging with me bags of food home. And he, just eat it happily. No physical help from him, no financial help as well. I am WORST than a maid!!! The maid don't even need to pay for anything!!!

Why am I paying, cleaning, doing everything for the family? And he just gets to enjoy all these, and not even appreciative!!! And abusing me verbally & physically!!! One day, I will end all these sufferings!

I have been making mistake after mistake in my relationship. But I can't just quit for this one. But many times, I thought of living by myself again. Why am I supporting the family? Everything from salt to rice to diapers is from my own pocket.

Why do I have to work so hard? And he just takes everything for granted!!!

Sometimes, I thought of leaving with Sheyenne. I think we might be happier by ourselves. So the dad can't use rubberband to abuse her. What a brilliant idea his mom has suggested!!! RUBBERBANDS !!!

I really feel like returning him to his mom. I feel like an outsider. Never feel I am HIS family. NEVER !!!