121206 = 34 + 6

On this day 12 December 2006, I am 34 years old, and married for 6 years!

The following text is very touching:Love is Blind

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He has always been there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, "Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying, "Just take care of my eyes dear."

This is how human brain changes when the status change. Only few would remember what life was before, and who has always been there even in the most painful situations.

Life Is A Gift.

Before you think of saying an unkind word;Think of someone who can't speak. Before you complain about the taste of your food; Think of someone who has nothing to eat.Before you complain about your husband or wife;Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion.Before you complain about life;Think of someone who went too early to heaven. Before you complain about your children;Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean or sweep; Think of the people who are living in the streets.Before whining about the distance you drive;Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.Before you complain about your job and how tired you are; Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had our job. BUT before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another, Rememberthat NONE of us are without sin and all of us answer to one maker.When depressing thoughts seem to get you down, put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around.Life is a giftLive itEnjoy itCelebrate itAnd fulfill itAnd while you are at it give love to someone today Love someone with what you do and the words you say Love is not meant to be kept locked inside of us and hiddenSo give it away "Give Love to someone today!"

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Although today should be a day to call for a celebration, but I am all alone in a neighboring country. So who to celebrate with?

Anyway, I had a most ridiculous encounter today. I was having a casual conversation with some people, who later accused me of degrading their country! My god, why are these people so narrow minded?

I was commenting about a fact. A well-known fact that their taxi drivers charging extremely high fixed rate instead of going by the taxi meter. It is a fact, not something that I made up. Why can't they accept the truth? That's is why their growth is so slow! Cause it's hindered by narrow-minded people like them! Just like their ex PM!

Really crazy & STUPID people!

Damn dulan.

Siao Ding Dong!!!

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E型:(澀味)

Did a character test, and this is about me:

這種人的個性是既老實又樸素，剛開始可能會被應為是個很無趣的人，但只要和你交往久了，就會發現你也擁有意外的特質，也是個很有想法的人。雖然在團體中不是很出風頭，但仍能過著幸福的生活，而且，如果可以待在充份發揮自我專長的領域下，就會有漸漸嶄露頭角的機會。

Why Condoms Are Packed in 3, 6, 12?

Why condoms are packed 3, 6, 12 to a box?

A man walks into a drug store with his 8-year old son. They happen towalk by the condom display, and the boy asks, "What are these, Dad?"

To which the man matter-of-factly replies, "Those are called condoms, son.... Men use them to have safe sex."

"Oh, I see," replied the boy pensively. "Yes, I've heard of that in health class at school." He looks over the display and picks up a package of 3 and asks," Why are there 3 in this package?"

The dad replies, "Those are for high school boys.One for Friday, one for Saturday, and one for Sunday." Cool!" says the boy.He notices a 6 pack and asks, "Then who are these for Those are for college men." the dad answers. "Two for Friday, two for Saturday, and two for Sunday WOW!" exclaimed the boy, "then who uses THESE?" he asks, picking up a 12 pack With a sigh, the dad replied "Those are for married men. One for January, one for February, one for March etc "

Siao Ang Mo!

Kenna scolded by siao angmo just because we choose between left or right tables at the food court. She was not even near & both the tables are not occupied. What's wrong with her! Go back to your own country!!! PIG!

She drives me crazy !!!

Mom is always thinking too much.

Now she complains that I invited dad & her siblings to Sheyenne 1-month old party... and said that I never visited her nephew & niece babies & return them with gifts.

The problem is, I am not close to my cousins. I don't even have their numbers. I don't know of their recent updates. My mom herself didn't even give them red packet or gift when they had their babies. And now she demands that I should go visit my uncle, her brother, and return him $60! WTF!

I said, why $60? She said cause he given you $20 and a bottle of liquor. I can't really remember what the liquor is, I think it's VSOP. It's a black bottle and looked used. And even the $20 is in a very old red packet too... btw, does my uncle expect me to start drinking & go partying after my baby turns 1-month old? silly!

And now she say, her youngest sister is scolding about somebody. She thinks she's referring to me. She thinks she is scolding about me inviting them to Sheyenne's 1-month and took their gifts and did not do the same to my uncle's children.

Excuse me. I didn't even know about the newborns!

Mom always make it in such a way that we don't owe our relatives, and they don't owe us anything too. Because of such thinking of hers, we are very distant from all our relatives.

Now brother has just shifted to his new place, and thinking of inviting the relatives. Mom strongly opposed to it. I dunno why she always behaves this way... She likes to control everything. And thinks too much too!

When Sheyenne was celebrating her 1-month old, mom even needs to be so calculative to the extent of asking me if parking is free at my place on Sunday. I asked if parking is not free, does it mean that she is not coming? She got angry over it. I think I should be the one getting angry!!! Imagine the grandma is calculating about parking fee instead of thinking of visiting her grandchild!!! Does $1 or $2 means so much to her?

From the day Sheyenne is born, until she is 10 months old. Mom has only visited me thrice. Once at the hospital, once before Sheyenne is 1-month old, and once when Sheyenne celebrates her 1-month old. Then she only reappear when Sheyenne is 10 months old.

And after the USA trip, she just went missing and reluctant to come & help me with Sheyenne. My only choice was to send Sheyenne to a child care. And almost everyday, mom will call me to pick up Sheyenne earlier. What have I done to make her think that I am idling everyday? If she really cares for Sheyenne, why did she forsake her?

Is that really MY MOM?

Bitch at Kinokuniya

An afternoon at Kinokuniya, Ngee Ann City.

Sheyenne chuckle. Briefly, and not loudly. Not even screaming or shouting.

Bitch on a bench reading a book said "Shh...., Shh... , Shh..., Can you ask your child to quiet down?" in a rude manner.

"This is not a library." I replied.

"People are trying to read a book. Your child is making too much noise." she said.

"Then you should GO to a LIBRAY to READ YOUR BOOK." I replied in a stern tone.

Crazy bitch. It is a book store, and a public one. There is no sign anywhere to ask people to keep quiet. If she really want to read in a quiet environment, go to the library or go back home!

Maybe she is too poor to afford the book to bring it home to read... poor bitch!

Ugly Singaporeans

Saw an amazing scene @ IMM today.

Once we insert the coins for the carousel, a.k.a. Merry-Go-Round. All the children, whom are strangers to us, hop on for a free ride. An Indian lady quickly ran over with her two kids and put them on it.

It's only $2.

It makes me feel like those experiences I had when I was in China. If you give a beggar some coins, all the beggars start to come forward.

Good Friend? Ever?

So called good friend gave a bag of clothes (sample pieces) for shyanne. She can never get her name right. Despite several attempts to correct her. She can't even get MY name right, still address me as Gym.

After sending her the 1st sms reply to thank her for the clothes, and told her i like a few of them. She got hysterical and accused me of taking her friendship for granted. Then she mentioned about not regarding one of her secondary school friend not as her friend anymore, I simply replied 'Friendship are not easy to maintain, it takes two to clap.' And she gets more hysterical and start more accusation. And claimed that she is more experienced and much better than me to maintain friendship. Oh yeah, MY ASS!

In my earlier sms, I told her to feel free to come my place, and ended the sms with a 'You are welcome'. Apparently, she misinterpreted my message and keep asking why I told her 'You are welcome' when I should have said "Thank you'. I dunno why she has to be so jumpy about my 'You are welcome' message.

Some of her sms goes like this:

1) Thanks for your concern now asking me regarding my job loss. The 4k that I still owe u, I remember. Will return u when i am better off but i am not now. These samples solely for the kids benefits. You know what. I aldy not considered lynn as my friend anymore. I dont hurt my friend and i also dont like people taking my friendship or good intention for granted.

2) Agree. If one party does its part but the other took it for granted or even makes friend feel small, then it is smeared. True friendship can sustain trails of life no matter what and also true colors of friendship can still surface after many years of trails in life.

3) I left behind a past that someone else purposely created for me to destroy me. one that I will have to live with as a mystery forever. The last thing I need is to jeopardise friendship i cherish for years. But my instinct tells me when its time to assess it when things feel not right. I dont have to tell you the details but i have a hunch u are saying i didnt do my part as a friend. I also sense some hostility here. What's all these craps about?

I had enough of these smses.... this is a test to my endurance. A good friend will not spout such nonsense and cause me hurt like that.

She even called another friend and spouted more nonsense. Such as I am a teacher, why didn't I know that after receiving things from people, I should say 'Thank You', instead of 'You're welcomed.' I think she is really over her head. CRAZY!!! Btw, 1st, I am a computer trainer, not a english teacher, 2nd, a true good friend will not criticized about your job & hint that you're not doing your job well. It's an insult to me for her to make such a remark.

I feel like returning the whole bagful of shit & the other stuff that she had passed to me for Sheyenne. To be on the kuai-lan side, I didn't tell her to pick up the samples for Sheyenne. Furthermore, she do it on her own free will and should not expect that receivers will return with a 'THANK YOU.' (although I think I did tell her Thank You.) WHAT does she expect? She wants me to kneel down & kiss her on her feet?

By lending her 5k when I myself was jobless & pregnant & not from a rich environment is something very great that I think have done for her. On top of that, I've never asked her when she wants to return to me. When she loan it from me in Year 2002, she promised to return half in 3 months time, the remaining in another 3 months time. I get 1k in Year 2005, and the other 80% is still no where to be found.

Since young, I've been tolerating her nonsense. She is so damn hysterical that she can spoil your day if you hit on her nerves accidentally. Or even, if you didn't do anything to her. :-(

I am really pissed with her. I really thought of erasing this person from my memory & contact list.

A friend will not treat you like this.

WHAT AM I ???

Very upset, mad & angry!!!

He went to a wake for the past 2 nights. Tonight, he will be a driver. Why? Whenever she asked him to do anything, he'll obliged. But whenever I asked him for something, refusal is his reply for 90% of the time.

What am I? Where am I in his list of priority? I am always the LAST priority!!!

Even simple stuff like going to the supermarket with me on weekdays is a chore to him. I have to be the one who always do all the grocery, by myself, lugging with me bags of food home. And he, just eat it happily. No physical help from him, no financial help as well. I am WORST than a maid!!! The maid don't even need to pay for anything!!!

Why am I paying, cleaning, doing everything for the family? And he just gets to enjoy all these, and not even appreciative!!! And abusing me verbally & physically!!! One day, I will end all these sufferings!

I have been making mistake after mistake in my relationship. But I can't just quit for this one. But many times, I thought of living by myself again. Why am I supporting the family? Everything from salt to rice to diapers is from my own pocket.

Why do I have to work so hard? And he just takes everything for granted!!!

Sometimes, I thought of leaving with Sheyenne. I think we might be happier by ourselves. So the dad can't use rubberband to abuse her. What a brilliant idea his mom has suggested!!! RUBBERBANDS !!!

I really feel like returning him to his mom. I feel like an outsider. Never feel I am HIS family. NEVER !!!

Sheyenne OHM

My little princess has been rejecting her Chinese name recently. Insist that she is Sheyenne, not baby, no JingRu. And she like to emphasize her family name. But instead of pronouncing it as Ong, she will pronounce as Ohm. So she is Sheyenne Ohm.

We laugh at that. Cute, isn't it.

She is also a rather stubborn girl. When she wants to do something such as keeping her toys, if you keep them for her. She will take it out, and put it back. She is also rather particular. If things are not place in the same location as what she wanted. She will insist you place it in the position that she wants.

This little one, makes me happy, makes me mad.

Less $

NICC is not going to provide grant for ICND anymore... that means less people will enroll for this course... which means I will have less classes to teach... boohoo :'(

I really need to go for more certifications to upgrade myself. But it's really so tough. I think my IQ is probably only 70.

Not that I am trying to find excuses. But usually, after picking up Sheyenne, and dinner at mil's, I will only reach home about 8pm. Then I have to either 1) wash clothes, 2) fold & pack clothes, 3) prepare Sheyenne's bag for the next day, 4) bath her if hubby is lazy. Then it's almost 9pm. The next task will be making milk & feeding Sheyenne, or cutting fruits for whole family. Then it's about 10pm. Time to send the kiddo to bed. Which... may take another 30/60 minutes... depends on kiddo's mood.

And what can I do after 11pm? Entertain hubby... and so so so exhausted.

What have I done for myself? Nothing! Even cleansing & mosituring my face seems to be a chore.

I wish working hours are shorter. Imagine, one only has about 3 hours at home for a day, not counting sleeping time. But spending so much money for the house. Not to mention almost 45% of the monthly housing installment is for the interest!!! OMG!! I still have 25 years to pay up!!!

Either 1) Get a full-time job, 2) Strike lottery, 3) Downgrade.

I don't want to choose number 1 & 3 ....

Wendy sends this joke, and I like it very much!!!

It is a myth that when a son gets married and a new daughter in law arrives in the family, everything changes. Some daughters in law are well trained and well mannered!!!!!. They don't come to change the family, they are there to............ The new wife (progressive Indian woman of today) was being welcomed at the husband's home in a traditional manner. As expected she gave a speech: My dear family, I thank you for welcoming me in my new home and family", she said "Firstly, my being here does not mean that I would want to change your way of life, your routine. No, I will never do that, never in a million years". "What do you mean my child?" Asked the father in law. "What I mean dad is (looking at her father in law): Those who used to wash dishes must carry on washing them. Those who used to do the laundry must carry on doing it. Those who cooked shouldn't stop at my account, and Those who used to Clean should continue cleaning". "Then what are you here for?" Asked the mother in law. "As for me, my job is to entertain your son!

Sleeping on the MRT

On my way home yesterday, I saw this sleepy fellow on the MRT... this is one of the least welcomed behaviour.

Besides this, the following is just testing my tolerance level:
1) Sleeping & nodding away happily towards you.
2) Leaning against you when you are neither the spouse or the lover.
3) Snatch the seat from you when you are almost sitting down.
4) Breath on your face, your arms, your shoulder, anywhere on you.
5) Has a bad breath but keep yakking away.
6) Size is bigger than the small little seat, so the extras overflow to you.
7) Pretending to sleep the moment an old lady/man, or a pregnant lady walks in.
8) He thought his balls are so big that his leg has to lean close to you.Many more.. i guess i am not a nice person to please!

Freedom !!!

Hubby's gone for reservist for the past few days. How do I feel? FREEDOM! Yell it like M-whatever Gibson in that I-forgot-the-name-of-the-movie. *update* Braveheart!

While he is away, I am going to custom make some furniture at home. I hope he will not scream at me when he return... *scared scared*

Went to watch the movie 'I Not Stupid 2' last friday. Some plots in the movie is very real, like something that will happen to most of us in our lifetime. Such as, we always forgot to be more encouraging towards our kids... or even family members... Most of us, will pass negative remarks, instead of being more positive... :-(

Last night I cut 2 pears & a peach. Went away for a while & left the fruits with hubby. When I appear in 5 mins time, what's left is only 1/4 peach & 3/4 pear. I ask hubby, so that's 1/4 peach is for me & sheyenne? And you took 3/4 of it!?! He apologised & said he feels bad... I dunno if he really feel that way... But somehow, I find that, he has taken me for granted... in many ways...

He's a rather lucky man. A man that doesn't have to worry much about household expenses, which can cost a bomb.

Well, I just wish that he won't yell at me for making 2 cupboards. He always tell me to stop my buying. But... when a kid is growing up, they need different things... Now is year 2006, not 1976.

Anyway, I got sick of he and his mom's comments on me all the time. My ma in law likes to accuse me of buying toys for Sheyenne. But, the fact is, most of the toys is bought by friends. E.g., the cooking set & train is bought by MeiQing, the pianos are bought by Monica, the drawing board is by Julie, etc. I didn't really buy all the toys for her, but I don't think I need to inform her whenever someone buy/pass me a toy!

On top of all these, whenever I wore the same shirt as Sheyenne (seen on the left), my ma in law will pass a remark & commented in hokkien that I am 'hiao'! Which means vain. But I am already someone who is hardly vain. I don't even wear makeup except a lipstick if I am working. I have never even dye/highlight my hair. I didn't even wear nail colour all the time... and I am usually in simple clothes... I don't know what is HER definition of vain. But I get very offended by that remark. Irritated!!! What's wrong with me wearing the same clothes as my daughter!!! She can jolly well do the same if she wants to!!! ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY !!!

Chinese New Year is over!

Yesterday was the 15th day of Chinese New Year.

The older I get, the less enthusiatic I am about CNY.

When we were younger, we get excited for habing new clothes and 'angpow' for CNY. When you grow older, you can buy new clothes anytime, even everyday! And if you are single, the number 1 question you get is "When are you getting married?". If you are married, the number 1 question is "When are you having a baby?" If you are married and have kids, the question will be rephrased to "When are you having another baby?"

It's boring, isn't it. You can predict what people is going to ask you.

So I don't really enjoy CNY.

Beginning of Feb, I send sweetie pie to child care. Because I don't think my mom places my girl as her priority. Whenever my bro/sil goes abroad, she will leap to their house to take care of the 2 younger ones. They have a maid who's with them for 5 years, and the kids are 10 & 9 years old. Mine is only 2 years old, and without a maid. How am I suppose to take care of the young one if I need to work & nobody is at home????

After much consideration, we decided to send her to child care. My hubby is not too happy about this ONLY choice. But looking at the positive side, I do enjoy the peace I used to have before my mom moves in with me.

She is obviously practising favourtism, which she denies it.

Anyway, I am happier because that the house is less messy (cause the things are the way we left them when we go to work), the kitchen is less greasy (cause no one is cooking), and the house is more peaceful (minus the nagging of my mom's!)

My husband should be happier too, he can watch his scoccer. No one is fighting to watch TV anymore. Previously, my dad just sit in front of the TV, tuning to channel 54/52/50 all day long.

Whatever happen these few months really showed the true colours of many people. At least I get to see the true colours of 4 of them. One is my mom.

What I learn is : You have only yourself to depend on. Can't rely on anyone.

I just don't know why my mom is not the normal mom that most people have.

When I had a baby in 2003, she came to my house only once (in the period of the 10 months after I had my baby). Although I was the only one looking after baby right after my delivery, she never offered to help. I have no confinement lady, no maid, no in law to help. I have to do everything myself. From bathing the baby, washing the clothes, boiling 'longan' water, even washing the bathroom...

Well, all that just makes me a stronger person and realised that my mom is always not there for me. :(